what has irreversibly passed by, lost to the currents of time, residing now only in memory

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coleg

7 PM tonight was an important time for a friend of mine. This was someone who was very college-oriented, but also straight up the smartest person who I’...

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走向谁都末知的那个明天

Browsing through music in Spotify — unsatisfied by a racing Mendelssohn piano piece — I find my way to a playlist of Chinese EXO songs (inspired to searc...

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How I achieved exponential growth (ft. mindsets, connections, high standards, and passion) and then burned out

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my childhood tech obsession is beautiful

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Building, connecting, and questioning my way to meaning

Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I should think and act to steer my life in a purposeful direction — “maximize the potential of your life,” a...

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A Love Letter to the Non-Library (Andover Commencement Commentary)

“How are you feeling?” I asked a senior friend around this time last year. “Everything has an added weight to it,” he replied. “Heavy with the thought th...

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“What do you truly want to accomplish before you die?” A goal-setting app that shares my life philosophy

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Brief Reflection on Coronavirus, or: Realizing The World Is (Slightly) Falling Apart

Talking with a friend about how things are falling apart, how we might not be able to return to campus for the rest of the term; me realizing just how ma...

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Meaning and Purpose in Life as an Equilibrium of Monkey Mechanisms in an Unmonkey World (briefly ft. Coronavirus)

Talking about Coronavirus, confrontation with the possibility of death or the death of a loved one, and the emotional pain caused by having higher desire...

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peace

I sat on the floor of my room, eyes closed. My brain was filled with noise, with random thoughts and anxieties throwing themselves all around. “Clear, cl...

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platonic slut

A label Tessa and Kelly came up with for me, because I have so many platonic one-night stands.1 Sure enough, I had platonically “fucked,” without enteri...

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apology

An apology through email holds up as an admission of guilt in a court of law. As soon as you apologize, it’s over. I spent the whole time fighting. I d...

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